but i know you dont want to hear them.

After a while, you say that it gets pointless… meaningless.

But what about when i do hold you? After the hundredth time does that get meaningless too?

And how could a desire that comes from nothing but the heart ever be something but meaningful?

I do love you. I do want to hold you. I want to cherish you. I want nothing more than you. You are my escape from this goddamn workaholic life that i lead. Your the only thing i really look forward to, honestly. I want to cherish you because i am scared that we really wont have forever. Its like i am soaking you up in fear you will leave and i wont be able to anymore. I dont want to take anything about you for granted.

Im sorry you get sick of my sweetness. I dont understand it… Because if you said things like that to me, i would be all smiles. but i guess there is nothing to do but accept it. When i think why you dont like such things it makes my mind into a jumble. Its not meaningless, its not. I say it because i mean it. Because my body, mind, and soul ache for you. I cant hide it. I love you. I adore you. I do i do i do.

Please understand that when i sweet talk you its not just words. Never just words. Its my emotions and wants, my desires for that very moment. I love you.