Thats all i can do, thats what i feel i SHOULD do. I should drop it when you do things that upset me as to not piss you off.

I know it doesnt make sense, but thats kind of how emotionally… abusive? our relationship is. Not abusive in a harsh way, but you’ve somehow manipulated me to be a certain way, to feel a certain way, and the thing is, you didnt even try to.

You justify your mistakes by drugs, i cant tell you anything constructive without you going “OKAY MOM” and you broke up with me because i told you to grow up.

Guess what, you do need to.

Im a woman, i need a man. Not a male who acts like a little child at times.

I need you to own up to your mistakes, not just get mad at me when i dont understand or forgive you the very instant that you fuck up.

What has even happened to you? Going to Fbo to beat some guy up for stealing your ipad when he didnt even steal it? you had no proof and you even went with airsoft guns, dont be stupid, you could do jailtime for that. God, think about things for pete’s sake.

I have to write it down here because if i told you that you would scream at me for it. And id cry, then you would get mad at me for being upset that you screamed at me.

Its a fun little circle. You need to be more clear. Dont expect me to read your mind with things. Dont tell me “ask S, he was there, he can vouche for me” Come on, i heard you say what you said, i dont need to hear it again from your friends.

I know youdumped me for this, but please, please grow up, im begging you. I feel like im in love with someone that im 10 years older than. Sometimes its unbearable because i dont understand how you DONT understand.. when i make things so clear. I spell it out for you countless times and you fail to get the message every time. It makes me feel like you dont care, like you dont pay attention. You said you’d try harder, but im not seeing the effort.