I  love you

and im so insecure.  I dont try to be. But i am

how i only feel loved when you do something that you feel bad about,

sometimes theres something sweet, something completely adorable at random times… but what i need most is words…

tell me how you feel or i wont think you feel it. I have a lot of doubt about everything because … i fucking HATE comparing my last relationship to ours, but.. when him and i were six months in i had never felt more secure, more loved and adored.

its been 5 months that we’ve been together (six basically, though) and i feel just as rocky as when we first started..

i know all relationships go at their own pace, and every new relationship will be different, but i just miss feeling loved.

i miss midnight texts, little love poems, or the “listen to this song, it reminds me of you” kind of thing.

i miss talking to someone on the phone and having something to say… i miss being listened to.. i miss having conversation and i miss our bubble.

sigh… i dont want to have another conversation like this since we’ve already had a few. but its necessary. because either this needs to change or i dont know what i’ll do.

because im like every other human

i want someone with me because they need to be. not just because they want to be.

not because im all they have and without me they would have nothing to do, no one to hold. i dont want someone to just have me around because its convienient or because they like the idea of me..

i need to be needed

okay? because i only feel needed when you cry because your afraid of loosing me.. but its the times inbetween those times that feel like somethings missing. ughjfskjf.